trust is complicated...so i watch everyone take showers

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 21:12:41 GMT

sunday sunday sunday...Ater The Ending has our 1st show at a house party!!!HELLS YEA...WE R GONNA ROCK...ill try to get directions...everyone make sure to come out and see us

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 04:29:11 GMT

today was awesome...woke up and skated a lil...then went to eat with sean and friends and then went to band practice...let me tell u "after the ending" is damn good...and its fuckin fun as hell to play with this band...i cant wait to play shows..but yea after our amazing 4hour band practice went out to eat and watch the game with friends and then went to see hero...damn good movie but its in subtitles and that wasnt the best thing for me since i was tired as hell...laura was over yesterday and it was good hangin out with her...thats bout it...OCTOBER SUPRISE TOMORROW AT CARMEL COUNTRY CLUB

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 20:08:22 GMT

not much has happened lately...got a new band goin...we r gonna be good i bet...got travis and phillip on guitar..got me on bass..sean on drums and taylor on vocals...its gonna be bitchin...i hope...yea got october suprise jam tonight im excited bout that...that shits fun as hell...yea not much has happened...hopefully hangin out with laura friday...so yup

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 01:45:43 GMT

ok well guys i feel like i should post this since my life is pretty much everyone elses life...ok i havent seen caitlin in a month and 2 weeks right...and i did somethings in boston i shouldnt have...and ill tell u what happened....i fucked some girl,kissed girls i probably shouldnt have...(truth or dare!)and umm well the other thing is pretty easy to figure out...well i expected this for a while and caitlin found out...and i want to know everyone that reads this if theyre friends with caitlin...im sorry ...and caitlin im sorry...and rich i know ur gonna say something...so go ahead and say it...but now everyone knows...and caitlin im sorry u had to find out through other people and i deff should have told u...

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 00:47:16 GMT

school has been pretty good.teachers and kids are cool

12inch had practice today for the 1st time in 2 months and it was good

been hangin out with sean ben robby and sara and thats pretty much it

talked to muffin and alyssa and shona (sry bout ur name spellin)and mike and jesse and it was good to talk to them and also mary...miss them all

everyone come to stateline skate park saturday at 5 12inch is playin and its near carowinds

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 00:44:51 GMT

school actually isnt that bad..i have a bunch of cool people in my classes.and the teachers are straight as hell.

today 12inch had our first practice in like 2months and it was actually really good..we have a show saturday at the stateline skate park at 5 or 530 everyone should come down and see us...its by carowinds its gonna be good!

nothing really else to talk bout b/c nothing has really happened these past few days...been practicin and hangin out with sean robby ben and sara...other than that nothing really

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 20:56:15 GMT

back in cahrlotte and is really sad.i miss boston and i miss the people i met.u never realize how fast u get attached to someone and how well u get to know someone until u live with them and see them every day for 5 weeks and only 5 weeks and it feels like ive been with them for years...and to mary,muffin,alyssa,ryan,john,lara,mike,jesse i love yall and miss yall...

now on the a different im happy to be home to play in the band again...i missed that very much...and im glad to see sean samantha jenna ben and all my other friends i left behind...and to everyone 12inch is playing a show on saturday...

fuck tomorrow since its the 1st day of school...I HATE SCHOOL.

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 21:09:40 GMT

the real slim shady...that was funny what u said but i didnt mean jenna was ugly like that...i meant her picture was...its so goofy...but anyways...yea but last night was the shit....ive never been so happy...last night was the first for 2 things and only robby,ryan,muffin,john and jesse know and its crazy....but yea ok im gonna go hang out with aylssa and them..peace

RICH IS THE SHIT

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 22:12:39 GMT

what up bitches!im at riches house with robby john ryan and rich and we r gettin drunk at fuckin 615 and its awesome!!1i love this city i dont wanna come home...and jenna ur so ugly..andf i got some stories of band camp...and they r awesome...im goin to the beach sundya with muffin,mary,alyssa,lara and maybe mike...its gonna be the shit im excited....and i cant wait...and i talked to one of my friends bitches and shes comin to charlotte to chill with me and my friends and ive never met her...ISNT THAT THE SHIT...well im gonna go get drunk...I LOVE YOU KATHERINE AND NATHANIEL AND I MISS YALL...PEACE BITCHES

I HEART BAND CAMP

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 23:57:27 GMT

yesterday was an ok day... caitlin and i got in a fight rather not talk bout it....umm practiced and made this really awesome beat for 12in and i got so many ideas for jgyg...ummm goin out to eat i think tonight with mikes,lara,mary and alyssa...but i dunno if i want to...i was up until 6 this mornin talkin to joey and elisa...some fun stories we told...but im gonna go take a nap..

I LOVE BAND CAMP

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 18:06:18 GMT

this past week and half has been the shit...fuckin crazy ass shit has been goin down in our room and in marys and muffins room...mike and i got invited to a hotel room "party" which ended up being me mike mary muffin and lara...fun shit though...we watched secret window and eurotrip...and that was fun...ummm last night was straight...lets just say it involved to drunk girls and me robby and spencer laughin our asses off...ummm some hobo last night asked me and my friend ryan to get drunk with him...but we thought he was undercover so we just ran away...jesse got this phat bob marley guitar and its hot as shit...but this place is gettin to be a lil annoyin with the drama...but i havent had drama so im cool...right now im in lara's room with mikes , listenin him hit on lara and dance...its funny...i got cornrows and robby is gettin dreads...ummm theres only 2 weeks left and im sad...i dont wanna come home b/c i love it here...and i love the people here there is so much cool shit to do and i love....i dont miss that much at all...im movin to boston when i turn 18 and comin here cause this place is awesome...alright well lara's gotta go to class and i think im supposed to meet alyssa and muffin so i gots to get my ass outta here and practice before that so peoples call me...peace

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 23:45:40 GMT

im in boston and ive been here for awhile...and its AMAZING..i love it i dont want to come home.i love it here...meeting new people and shit...and seeing amazing drummers and guitar players and everything...someone amazing singers...and all the people are cool...i dont wanna come home ever...people gettin fuckin hammered and shit this place is heaven...the teachers rock too...learnin a bunch of new shit and seeing some pretty cool shows...tryin to get use the boston words...llike wicked...i hate that and everyone saids it...and ive been practicin like 3 hours a day and ive gotten a lot better....and it feels so good to be away from charlotte bullshit but i missin a few friends...but for the most part im glad to be awawy...but yea this will probably my only post for awhile but ill try to check...im usin some girls computer so i probably wont be gettin on much...but fuckers call me... 704 609 3215...peace and everyone have a great summer

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 05:39:10 GMT

today was a very good day...woke up...nathaniel and i went to seans to hang out with caitlin and him and jenna...sat there for a few hours and shit...chilled with caitlin and watched tv...then i went to johns to talk bout the show comin up...there was some bullshit i dont feel like gettin into..went up to carmel to see caitlin and them...and it started to rain real hard...so we had a mud fight and shit and it was awesome...had a wonderful time hangin out with caitlin...i leave for boston in the next 2 weeks...kinda not lookin forward to it...well i get to hang out again with the people i love tomorrow...and they will probably make me happy....and today being the 24th is the 3rd year of my dads passing...which is harder but its gettin easier i guess....my mom wants to go see his grave sight but i dont know if i can handle that again...every time i go i cry and i hate cryin and i hate seein my dads name on the ground...but its a way of life and i know ill be joinin him sometime...well good night everyone

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 02:04:18 GMT

woke up...went to seans and hung out with him and caitlin...glad to see caitlin ...um hung out there for a lil...went to nathaniels and chilled here with tyler...watched tv,south park that shit...well thats pretty much it

P.S. joey tell me when you start driving so i know when to get off the road! DOUCHE!!

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 16:36:26 GMT

these past 2 days were really good...went to robbys and jammed with his brother john cause robby is outta town...we fuckin made up 8 songs...we r like a jazz band...just a guitar and drummer...no singin and every now and then john plays the keyboard...ummm we recorded on demo on johns computer...did it in 2 days....umm went to see dodge ball last night..gave me a couple laughs...ummm phillip sorry bout callin...just whenever u can give me that shit its cool i really dont need it any time soon...but whatever sorry bout the callin..and that wasnt my mom with me at ur house...well its fathers day...im either gonna go back to bed or hang out with gary not sure yet...probably the second one...alright john and i may have a show monday or wend. at the hickory tavern off of providence...off exit 57...it will be hot ill give u more info if we get the show...and to the person that posted bout caitlin...yes i do like...and yes this may be hard to believe but through our fightin and what not...we still have good times together...and i mean im havin fun with her and shit so thats pretty much whats important and everyone has their fights so its no big deal....but i would appreciate it if we kept cailtin off this just b/c its makin her look like a really horriable person whens shes not...ok well everyone have a good fathers day and what not...and so long

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 01:46:02 GMT

went to bed at fuckin 7 this mornin...woke up at like 1130ish dunno why.hung out with phillip and nathaniel...went to robbys and jammed with him and his brother and it was good..then went over to seans house,talked to his mom and then she paid me $15 to mow her lawn...so i did....ummmm last night went to jennas with caitlin and nathaniel...not very good...left there at like 10 and went to carmel middle school and sat there for like an hour and robby and ben walked up there and we chilled for a lil...went home and watched tv,listened to music...nathaniel went to sleep so i learned some guitar lines and then watched tv and listened to music until 7 then went to bed...thats bout it douches...and i HATE JOEY FOR BEING CIXELSYD.....there joey can u read that...it saids DYSLEXIC you ass pony...

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 14:41:12 GMT

last night i went to see "riddick" with some friends...worst movie ever!the worst acting and script was so bad...soooo bad!well i talked to caitlin last night and bout that last post...i was being a douche..again...but we talked bout that shit and i was just being stupid and everything is cool.i hopfully get to see her today...also i think im jammin with sean and will...and travis if u have a lj and u read this...they would be perfect to start a band with cause they wanna do the same type of music...we would cover "time consumer" "devil in jersey city" and probably the crowing....just hit me up man if u wanna join...and caitlin if u read this im sorry bout last night again i was being a homo...alright well im either gonna masturbate or take a shower...but not masturbate in the shower cause im not like that...well alright peace

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 00:42:42 GMT

tonight i was supposed to hang out with caitlin...but she blew me off to hang out with ben and robby and buy pot from them i just heard...well if u read this and i dont get to talk to u caitlin...FUCK YOU...and i have more words in store that im not gonna write over lj cause i want u to hear them urself

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 00:32:11 GMT

havent done shit this week...went to virgina with my mom gary and nathenial for a day.i guess it was cool..went to drums today...nothing new...my solo thing for boston is based on the melody for blackbird...kinda cool..umm have nothing to do tonight have no one to chill with but i think hunter and i r gonna go chill with sean cause hes got a pool and his moms gone so that might be fun...umm nothing else cause my life is borin..alright awesome...

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 19:10:53 GMT

a long car ride...radio off..lights on.i keep my eyes on the road as she looks out the window.this is killing me.knowing how this will end.i turn to talk but the words won't come out.this seems all too familar.sitting together late at night.not being able to look at one another.fighting to the urge to kiss her...because i know she will pull away.do i remind her of someone else?of someone better?she falls asleep on the other side of the bed.and i wish she'd fall asleep in my arms.maybe im not what shes lookin for.maybe im not what she wants.im not perfect,then again no one is.i turn into her driveway.she gets out...no "good-bye" falls from her lips...not even a good night kiss.i leave...dont care if she makes it inside ok.pull out onto the main road.turn my lights off and the radio on...unbuckle....i dont watch the road as i floor it...shes going to miss that last goodbye....never have our last kiss...maybe she wont...maybe this is exactly what she wants...this is the way it ends....the night...hopefully they will find that note i left on the table.i hit the wall...i fly...as i lay there on the street...i dont hear my radio i dont see any lights...i dont miss it...blood running down my face...i get the feeling i did something right...and i let go...a smile on my lips...for tonight is the night that i realize i was never happy....but...good bye...

yesterday was the last day of school awesome and thats bout nothing else happened...well i leave for boston soon and i cant wait im real excited...

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 23:39:34 GMT

today had spanish and bio...easy...after school came home read alil and then went to seans...sat there for awhile talked to harmon...sam jenna and caitlin came over...caitlin threw up after something...now shes angry at me...but it was good seein her...chillin with sean right now we just ate and then bout to get cigs so peace out...and tomorrow is the last fuckin day of school!!!and i cant wait to chill with caitlin again...and sean

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 01:08:55 GMT

today was good...woke up at 12...bullshited studyin..walked to seans and hung out with him jeanna sam and caitlin for a lil...went back home then went to the book store to get the dark tower..came home and walked to carmel and caitlin meet me there...it was awesome to spend some time with her and it just being us two and talk and stuff...but there was this damn dog that wouldnt go away and make us throw this tennis ball..whatever i got to see caitlin...friday hung out with nathaniel phillip cal and nik..it was fun...didnt do anything saturday cause i wasnt feeling very good...but i did get to met my step cousin and shes really cool and i hung out with ben and robby for a lil which was fun and thank u very much ben and robby what yall did...other than that nothing else happened...

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 23:18:18 GMT

"If there is someone you would love to have an epic, sweaty, damn near legendary, 12 hour fuckathon with, post this same exact sentence in your journal."

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 21:43:16 GMT

had exams today...crafts and gym were very simple...easy A's...after school went to band practice with hugh,john,dave,taylor,sharuzu,and myself...then went to spanish thing...came home and went to go see caitlin, sean and samantha...was very tired at this point i didnt talk much...some gay ass homo came up and told us we couldnt sit where we were sittin cause it was "someones backyard" when we were sittin at like a pond...so we spent like 15min tryin to tell him it was ok to sit there...in the end i just went home and sean and them went to sams house...umm got math and world history tomorrow and then after that im jamming with travis and phillip which will be awesome cause travis is amazing at guitar...and im kinda hopin phillip will do vocals...after that i have to go back to that spanish thing at 4 to 5 then we have a show at 7 at daves...i dont think we play until like 8 but it starts at 7..thanks dave for letting us play at ur house...again...got a show saturday...hopefully it will go well...hopin to see caitlin this weekend...hopin to chill with nathaniel...and PRAYING TO GOD that i pass this year...

everyone make sure u come out tomorrow to watch 12inch and a days change...it will be an awesome show...LIKE ALWAYS

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 02:26:30 GMT

went to school...skipped 6th period w/ taylor and went to chickfila to eat and went to record exchange...then went back for 8th period for a party...then came home and chilled with sean and samantha...then caitlin and jenna came over...im so happy i got to see caitlin...she makes me very happy...jammin with travis and phillip friday i think...got a show friday night at daves...then got a show saturday at annas...gonna be a good weekend..schools almost out and im happy...hopefully ill get to see caitlin a lot this sumnmer...goin to boston soon...have mixed feelings about that...happy that i get to go play music and stuff...but sad i have to leave the people i love behind for 5 weeks and not be able to see them...well its late and i got exams tomorrow...fuckin gym and crafts...HELL YEA!